Mad

My dad is a serious, normal guy!  You all wanna rub him in when I'm the 1 who deserves to shine as a person.

More Suggestions

So, people think all the cool stuff will literally go to others and are trying to push me away from my life.  How is that worthy?

Will Not Accept

People come in and say I know in the end you want me to pay after helping me.  That doesn't mean you get it all cuz you're upset @ your mom being born before 1950.

Another Message

Audubon Zoo likes Europeans but not Chinese who look white?  How am I supposed to not post this?  I don't care if you meant it okay in some way.

1stly, mostly, lastly

1stly, my mom doesn't go skin deep.  2ndly, I don't get to enjoy the racial purity I get from her.  3rdly, it's time to rebound my dad for treating me like he's a girl.

Problem

I still feel that invading tingly feeling in my pants, which are wet.. and I'm running outta shaving cream.

Weird

I wasn't the 1 who wanted my parents to hurt me.  Don't others hurt me like that?  Why would they not like people who do the same thing they do?  They don't fight them.  They aren't burdened with other kids with the same problem.

Also, these phonies and con artists have nothing to offer us.  They just say they do.  Let's just keep going.  Who knows, maybe one day you'll run into someone like that, which is exactly what you want, isn't it?  I must admit I seem to want more and so do others.  Not sure about giving up on things.  That would seems silly.

Problem

My dad was trying to stimulate me like Ellen, and she has no right to be mad at me.

THIS IS A BIG PROBLEM.

You just can't stop, can you?

Not Nice

You can't just assure that you know I'm 1/2 Chinese.  Go around and have everyone leave little droppings like Easter candy.

Problem

They won't leave me alone.  I can't just sit here and take this.

Problem

Also, why is it thought that someone is with me I don't want like that now?

Problem

So, why would someone call me half Japanese?  It was very insulting.  I don't want this to be able to be a true feeling.  It is!  You wanna be stimulated like you're Japanese?

I thought..

..Ellen DeGeneres has met people.  Do you think her cutesy fake way of taunting and teasing is really that impressive?  Cute?  She seems to deal well with ^real problems^, but sometimes it's not so fun.  I am being blamed for things I didn't do and felt bad for ^what happened^ that I did.  You think cursing to yourself on your personal blog, it will be better 1 day and it doesn't matter.  It just adds up.  I don't curse at people.  I stopped, again, but if something was really funny I'd curse, like online or 1 on 1, for example..

Why..

..are you inserting my dad in my personal life like I want him there like that?  I am not my dad.  I am not anyone but me.  I don't even know if it'd be fun to say I'm my own dad.

I mean why.. why, why, why?!

I think I know why, but you are wrong.  It's the same with siblings.  I am very different from most people.

The Straw That Broken the Llama's Back

I am very careful, and when I have 1 little question people want me to call anything going for me quits, just like that, like I'm bad, and others have it easy.

Moreover

People treat me like I'm bad all the time, but I'm always treated badly.  My thoughts often snap, but sometimes I do, too.

Someone inform me.

I have a friend who weirdly acted like suddenly she had to be better than me just cuz her parents are European.  She had a theory that you are like your parents, and if you seem worse then that means the other person is really worse than you, in turn.  Everyone also thinks they bring out in me an evil spirit when I was always quiet and obedient and now the people who were in trouble are no longer in trouble.

I am being attacked.  I will not accept people telling me things like they have something to discipline.  You look me up and irritate me like you know something I don't.  You are doing it trying to arouse and stimulate me, too.  You just keep going like it makes you look good!  You wanna be one of those flashy parents to someone who is already mature.  What happens is I'm fine, I've apologized if I did something.  Then, that's when it starts.  Something is brought up.  So, it wasn't me if ever hardly.

I said something about someone that I didn't mean in a way it was interpreted.  Guess they found something inappropriate, like they invented some contest where they can be meaner to me than to others.

I cannot believe people who go behind my back to tell me they are teaching me a lesson for something I didn't do and don't go back.  They just say oh it's okay, it means something else.

If you're ^the one^ who gets all the pleasure and glory, then what are you doing saying you're there for us if we don't feel the pleasure and glory over you?  I'm young enough to be that way, but I'm not, I'm also older.

Also, people are incredibly cruel to me for little slips when I'm so nice and perfect in attitude.  I am suffering a lot, now.